Forgetful

Went for bf soccer match. I forget who won. But at least I could see bf.

I miss him.

A few days ago, bf told me something about the end of the world.

He said that according to the Quran, when it is the end of the world, a one-eyed sea creature that can talk, Dajal, will emerge from the sea.

I asked bf: "So, what is he doing now? How come he only comes out when it's the end.?"

Bf said: "He is sleeping now. He has been sleeping eversince there is Earth. Prophet Isa will come out when the sun is rising from the west instead of the east."

I asked bf again: "Doesn't Dajal's back ache since he has been sleeping for too long?"

Owh well, bf didn't have answers to many of my questions. A bit frustrating.

But of course my bf doesn't know much about the end of the world.

He's not an angel.

Bf said: "When it is judgement day, you can't remember who you are"

I said: "Aaaaaaaaaaargh! sobs sobs."

Bf said: "You can't remember who your family are."

I said: "AAaaaaargh! sobs sobs."

Bf said: "And you won't even remember me."

I said: "AAAAAAAAAaaaaaaargh! sobs sobs."

Bf said: "On that day, all you ever think about is your sins. Unless if your Iman is strong, you can still remember your family and go through the judgement day together."

I don't know how to explain the meaning of Iman to you.

I think it is something gotta do with your good deeds towards God. For example, praying, reciting the Quran and many more.

I said: "I wanna go to Al-Azhar University in Arab and memorise the Quran. I don't want to not know you later on."

Bf said: "You don't even know how to read the Quran!"

My brain said: "AAAAaaaaargh! I'm gonna go through judgement day alone."

I'm gonna die in three years time.

And I'm gonna be all alone.